mmf

you told me that, i would do great things. i barely knew you but that got me through freshman year. i wish i'd gotten over my social awkwardness just long enough to get to know the one person that everyone loves.

purple is your favorite color. i'm wearing purple for you.

my brief encounters with you were absolutely wonderful. you told me that i could dance, not that i believed you but you were so wonderful to me. so wonderful to everyone.

you seemed to never be upset.

you managed to have helped influence a wonderful, strong, and brave younger sister. just like you.

rest in peace and know that we all love you.

Well, I guess I waited long enough. I should post a new one. Here it goes.

I am finally getting better after having sinus infection, bronchitis, and suuuuper bad asthma. Annnnd, I'm back with a vengeance baby! Well, not quite. But, I'm trying. I'm also a little comma happy. Just sit back and enjoy the ride of my crazy.

I think its mildly depressing that it's a Saturday night and I'm at home reading some sci-fi fantasy type shit novel. Well, thats what happens when you don't get invited to things that all your "friends" get invited to. I'm wayyyy over high school. I really wish that I was already in college. I need to meet new people and be less socially awkward among other things. My friends assimilated into the "popular" group sooo easily (I think it's because they have common interests that I don't share i.e. field parties. I can't just do that. I have to actually get to know someone by being in a forced situation in which I have to talk to them. Only then am I not awkward. Well I'm not very awkward around people my age or younger. Especially younger. I know that they are somewhat innocent and I can connect with that, probably because I'm so innocent.

I do still have a crazy, great, wonderful best friend. I try to hang out with her but we're both busy, her on the weekends and me during the week. Now, she's got a boyfriend. I didn't even know they knew each other until it was facebook official. Don't let that fool you, we actually are best friends who can tell each other anything. I was just having a busy, crazy week. Ugh, I hate being a teenager.

I finally made the decision of my current dream job (it's totally subject to change but it's a little something steady while my life is so crazy.) I want to be a zoologist. By that I mean that I want to work at like the Bronx Zoo and work on training and caring for the animals. I think it would be pretty darn cool. So what I've decided to do is get a job/volunteer at the Vet near my house. Of course it isn't remotely the same but I still get to hang out with animals and get paid or school credit.

Ugh. The world is crazy for a teenager. I haaate it. kbye.