So sentimental, not sentimental NO!

Thanks to John for that wonderful title. He sent me new music. Check out Phoenix's Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix. For more music bloggyness check out his shared blog. Well, after just reading it I guess it isn't shared anymore. I know I'm bad at posting regularly but be happy when I do post dammit! I don't even think that anybody reads this. Maybe I should do something like Julie Powell and get famous. Berf. I did see Julie & Julia. It was really cute. If you want real reviews check out The Rotten Tomatoes Show. I found that through infoMania. That show is incredibly silly and enjoyable. I really recommend it.

But to who...? Who is it that I'm recommending this show to? I doubt anybody actually reads this blog. Leave me a comment and a link to your blog if you do read it. I mostly just write for the therapeutic purposes but it would be lovely to know that people out there actually read my blog.

Gahh, school starts next week and I think that is ridiculous. I haven't made very much progress with my summer reading. Two out of three books read and no reports written. I trust that I will get it done. I find it enthusing that I am no longer a freshman in high school. One of the most lovely things I have thought in a good long time. Lately I've actually been fussy and a little depressed. I think I received a text that brought why I feel this way (partially) to my direct attention. The text read, "I think our group is falling apart." Absolutely true. And it is depressing. We were the "fab-five" which sometimes expanded to six or seven. Now it's a few groups of two and occasionally three. I knew our mildly successful friendship couldn't last forever but I had hoped it would last until college. People go their different ways. Some choose to get drunk and party. Some think that Friday movie nights and sleepovers are still really fun. I'll let you think what you want about which category I fall into. Why is this blog becoming so deep...? I only write to complain. I guess it's vaguely better than complaining to people.

I guess it's room cleaning time.

Catch ya on the flip-flop.

Aruba, Jamaica, oooh I wanna take ya..

Ugghhh, I'm so bad at this. Another week gone by. No blog posts. I'm sorry guys. I haven't done laundry in a while either, if that's any consolation. Ragtime was a success, if I do say so myself. It's silly but I only really bonded with people at the cast party. It would've made the world so much less awkward if I had discovered I wasn't as socially inept as I thought.

Well, I'm conflicted. (When am I not conflicted?) Well seeing as I'm going into my sophomore year of high school, I actually have to take challenging classes. (Crazy, right?) I also have to continue with Varsity swim team (I've been on the team since 7th grade and the coach would kill me if I quit, and lifesaving would be such an awkward class) but what I really want to be doing is the play. We're doing (well they are) Stagedoor which has 17 female leads I do believe. Gahhh, I really want to do it and I do think I have a fairly decent shot at getting a supporting lead (what a paradox), that is if I can attend rehearsals. Theatre is what I am more interested in. I have a vague idea of what I want to do but it changes from day to day. Currently, I want to be an actor who works at a family-owned bakery in a foreign country or Brooklyn. I know I should be involved in every theatre opportunity available to me, but I am just so busy. Ugh, teenage angst.

Being an avid reader of Jeffery Self's Blog and Cole Escola's Blog, I wonder if I'll even get to their success level. The world of theatre is crazy competitive and I dunno what to do about that. I don't like to step on people for my gain. I will if I have to but I prefer not to. Gah my life is a bit stressful. Well I'll let you go with that. Yeah I know, nice advertisement for their blogs. Fantasmic.

he doesn't look a thing like Jesus...

Well, I'm bad at this. As soon as I got started up again, I went away without my computer. I tried mobile posting but I hated the sounds the buttons on my phone made. Oy vey. When I came back I was just so out of it, and Ragtime rehearsals had started. Well, basically what happened at Yale was that I met a bunch of wealthy kids who had no problem saying how much their outfits had cost them. One girl went to a $300,000 per year private school. How did I respond to that? My school is practically free, we just pay taxes. Awkward. I also went to Boston and hated it. Not long after I decided I was an official Yankees fan. Oh and let me not forget that I fell in like with a boy who happened to be gay. Yay me. How did I not see it, his favorite shows were Gossip Girl and America's Next Top Model. Oh and he hates Coldplay which is a no-no for me. That was just awful. I did meet some nice people, they are planning reunions already but I'm so busy this year that I probably won't be able to attend.

Two days after my return, I started attending rehearsal for a summer show called Ragtime. There are some really nice people involved but I am too socially awkward to just go up to them and be like "heeeeyyy". I did have a mini-crush on somebody in that cast, he might also be gay. Goddammit, I am good at picking out the gay boys. I just want a dorky, gross teen romance. I haven't even had a first kiss, how weird. I'm the only one out of my group of friends. It's just so unpleasant. Anyways, today I think that I'm going to see Guys and Dolls performed by the Syracuse opera. That should be pretty interesting. I really love performing but I can't step all over people. I'm too kind to hurt people for my help. I don't know....

Well I have to go.

love to all of my readers. yes, I do know it's only Kaitlin.